The Wind Calling~

It's over, at last.

2005-10-11T12:24:00.000+08:00

But I don't seem to feel happy. =/ maybe I've lost track of myself again and I need pressure to regain my own momentum again.

So, anyways, Physics is screwed and Econs is a blast! (really!) It's completely reversed from my initial surmising... I mean, no interest rate and macroeconomics... it's like an unbelievable dream come true...!

But Physics was a killer... I doubt that more than 50% of the college finished the paper. I know GY did say that HC was even worse with its Chem and Bio students... but still, I thought TJ was supposedly more "benevolent"... whatever...

Is shocked

2005-10-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

A lot of things happening over the course of these few weeks. Those that have happened, whether expected or unexpected, signals change. Change is good! Yay! Except when you suddenly see Mr Cheng on your shoulders saying, "I am distracting him, go kill him!" XD

Main point:

GP Can make it...
Maths half can make it the other is all luck...
Computing sure can make it... shuuure can make it...
Physics... not yet taken, think something like Maths ba... (Thanks to telong for scaring me on MSN -.-")
Econs... what econs?

OK, I think I really have to go sleep now. Been feeling funny all day, for some reason. Heck, I slept with Gamble Rumble in my ears! -.-"

Oh, and for some reason, some bloody promoters are trying to promote their products on my blog. I think I gonna remove them if possible. Damned irritating buggers.

Introducing Iggy Wiggy!

2005-08-07T10:00:00.000+08:00

Well, haven't posted in a while so yea... -.-"

Anyway, I will start drawing random stickman comics from time to time featuring Iggy Wiggy, the kung-fu stickman that is, ME. =P

The first one, done on a foolscap paper, is something that just popped out of my head randomly.
Doctor EvilNet would pop up randomly over the course of the next few comics.

Meanwhile, I'm going to Maple so cya around ^___^

SD fanfic in the works...

2005-07-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

LOL, I am actually starting to do this Slam Dunk fanfic I had for a long time.
My original character was Arashi Junichiro, but since the name sounds so generic, I came up with Yukigawa Arashi and his sister Mai. Fanfiction is something where I actually kind of replace what I lost in childhood. Like Arashi is supposed to characterise me, really, and Mai is that supposed sister that I wished I could have but never did.
Then Uchiro, my visions of a gangster who wishes to turn back but is nearly forced back into the old route.
Goston, the half-"mummy's boy", half-independent tall guy, is something whom I wanted to be but cannot.
Then Shinichi Kawasaki, the slightly irritating kid who can be all quiet or all noisy.

My fanfic is somewhere in fanfiction.net, search my story "Slam Dunk II" and you'd get a hit. Comments are wanted and most welcome ^^

I wanted to scream, but can I?

2005-07-05T18:08:00.000+08:00

"Love may not be what you're looking for after all..."

Anyway, back to my rare posting. I am kind of tired now. Physical fatigue is one thing (I can sleep for two hours and still run for 16 hours) but mental fatigue is another. Honestly speaking, how long of an unreasonable dad can I take any more? I don't think anyone in the family can. He exploded at me in the face, screaming and yelling and scolding me for... guess what... giving my mum 300 bucks to fill up the account that was supposed to have been the rental-paying account for my mum's Limousine taxi. Is there anything wrong in doing so? If not, why am I the one getting scolded for being a son and doing what a son should do?!

Anyway, just a side note, if anyone of you guys find me getting stingier, there's a reason. My dad said he's going to cut my pocket money by half (25 bucks a week now) and, guess what? I gonna live with this much and no more. If he thinks I can't survive on 25 bucks a week, he's advised to do some canal root operation. If he thinks I am a perpetual slacker who is "finished" for being a gamer, I suggest he go get his brain replaced altogether.

Message? You want me to play with you on your little mind games, you are very welcome to do so. When that final backlash hits you across the face like a smelly fish, you had better not blame me coz you asked for it! If there's one thing I hate, it's me being pushed around. It does not just apply to my dad, it applies to anybody from now on who starts crossing me perpetually. It's no empty threat either.

Be warned.

To Angela, with tears, fear, love.

2005-06-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

It sounds harsh, Angela dear, but listen out if you're looking.

At that point in time, I know a lot of things occured, and, being the ignoramus I was back then, I simply chose to ignore those nosy people of 4CR. I thought it was because you had given up that's why I was so devastated... but now that you tell me that it's because THINGS happen around us that made you decide to break up, that hurt me even more. Honestly, it's just because they happen, and happen incessantly for 24/7, that you decide to give up?

You must know now, that in this whirl of friendship, love, and world of deceit, these kind of things are bound to happen. I bet you that even some of those hated Kynan-gang people would have already started some bet about how long it'll be before something happens between us two! It's been all around, Angela, all around!

That does not absolve me from all blame of course, as I had been one of the reasons behind the breakup myself. I admit, heading into this whirlwind myself had been a potent mixture of some kind of foolishness with my true affections towards you, which might certainly be some sort of powerful daring-concoction for me while being poison to you.

I didn't want to sound selfish, but have you considered my side of the feelings when you said, "Let's break up now, this is too much for me to handle coz of 1., 2., and 3." Did you know that at the moment I see that email in front of my eyes, I broke down big time? Did you know my hands were trembling the moment I sent you that three-message-long SMS? Did you know that you placed a knife in my chest on the 29th of November, 2004? I guess you did. I don't ever think you're insensitive to feelings, but every single word hurt. Hurt. Big time. Even when I type this now, I feel hurt myself knowing that I will hurt you, but if I don't get this chest off of me right now, I will ultimately start to kill myself slowly.

Why does it pain me now to say goodbye again, when I've done so 6 months ago? Because there is still something in there.

But for me, nothing is there to long for. Only my tear droplets reflecting on the wooden table's surface, once again. I hope you're happy elsewhere, Angela. It's all I dare to hope for you.

I am afraid of hurting myself by loving you all over again.

What about this love?

2005-06-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

I was listening to Maroon 5's "This Love" just a while ago.

It kind of reminds me of Angela (aka Yucca) from last year, and it still hurt me even when I said, no it didn't, I'm ok, it's perfectly fine. I mean, after a series of turbulent waves and all, the last thing I can stand is a goodbye from her. It's like she decided to give up when I am still fighting for it. I still didn't know whether it's a blessing in disguise, or just another painful memory. Like I didn't have enough of those from Kynan and gang. It's like the song said, this love has indeed taken it's toll on me; Only thing is, one goodbye is enough to send me keeling over.

I haven't revised. I am dead. I know I haven't grasped the Physics properly yet. Same for Econs, physics, computing and maths. Gosh.

I went SP-crazy this week. I mean, crazy, gaga over the whole thing, yeah, even though it's made me mad as hell too. Especially the high-carders. >.>+

Synn, Rizz, tequilaPOP. All left. Bah. Never mind, I'll be the only one experienced enough to rule over them all at the end. =)

Of lost stuff and all...

2005-05-25T16:07:00.000+08:00

Recap of last week, after reviving an almost dead blog:

Monday:

Went supporting the girls for their Singles while the boys went to watch. Feeling half-lethargic even though I slept well.
Improving my skills on Lethal Enforcers 3 and DMV.

Tuesday:

Left my plastic bag of clothes (and maybe my heart) in school. Asked See Shuen to help me get it but was delayed by him for no reason (and subsequently he couldn't find it, true to my prediction that he will because I KNOW such things happen but his scoffing, the disbelief! Damned >.>)
Played for Doubles and performance dropped sharply. It proved to be the day I fell to CCJ by 10 pinfalls because of...

The last game.

I don't know why or how but it's always the last game that shaves 10 points off my average. It just plain vexes!

Wednesday:

Should be a normal goings-on with the Quartet event for guys in the afternoon (plus DMV and LE3 again)

But...

I lost my mobile. For reasons definitely unknown. I knew I HAD it in my hands but it went missing >.>+

Thursday:

Went supporting the girls for their quartet.

The announcer declared TJ 4th and 4th for both guys and girls. Just double wow.
Glenda and Grace got to the MASTERS! =) Cool.

Went back home since the whole event ended at mid-afternoon and I have no more time to go back for any dodgeball trials for IT Club.

Friday:

Went supporting the girls again. Erm, we have to eat some more "soft rice" next year if I don't work hard >.>"

GLENDA DID IT! ... but her MASTERS title came at the cost of her right thumb's skin being torn. I heard Michael said he was talking rubbish there while accompanying Glenda on play.
*RUBBISH RUBBISH RUBBISH XD*

Saturday:

...Slack day. KALonline, Gunbound, KALonline, Highdescent, KALonline...
*coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs* *coughs*

Sunday:

*COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH* *COUGH*

(can't speak. But hard-headed against going to doctors.)

Guitar class is a nonexistent function, so I went DMVing and LE3ing again XD I'm just too addicted.

Plus a bit of wangan midnight 2... with Rubin looking at me... XD

Today?

Had a good time (=P) scolding See Shuen for NOT telling me about not being able to find my bag. I hadn't tried that for a long while because I didn't wanna hurt anybody, but My Uniform costed 50 over bucks and he SHOULD have told me first hand that he couldn't find it.

SPA was amazingly easy despite a minor screw-up.

Investiture for SC went quite smoothly too. =D Everyone thanked me for doing backstage and it felt good. But the REAL contributors were the emcee and the presenters =P

OK, time to go, can't talk anymore. Cya around.

Cheers
Joel

PS: Couldn't get into HC. Which is good. At least I can focus 100% on IT ExCo. =D

Keep it going!

2005-05-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

Priority:

VOTE FOR ME IN HC! Yes, I'll prove to you that I can change whatever's been written about me in the Big Five Profiling! And yes, that bloke who said 90% of the brain is inactive is ME! It's a scientific proof from your dear old Readers' Digest! ^^

/promoting

Anyway, today things' been rough. My PDP - Bowling. Then Econs. Then GP. Then GPP. Then PI. Can anyone stand this? Not to my knowledge. =P

If you'd noticed, I have to watch my language carefully in order to keep the HC campaigning positive-toned. =/ no back-stabbing, no nothing. HC elections are no joking matter.

Today's post is cut short - look, what IS the time now? Gotta go sleep =D so nites.

PS: VOTE FOR ME!

Very very very dead...

2005-04-25T09:28:00.000+08:00

Never mind that I'm posting this now like 15 mins from Econs Test.

Never mind that I'm posting this now like with no GP HW done AT ALL.

Never mind that I'm posting this crap now.

One thing is for sure:
I AM DOOMED. -.-"

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As it had turned out, I missed Saturday's guild war because DivineSouls didn't manage to recruit me on Thursday evening. So I was leveling HikariNeko all the way from Level 24 to 25. Kinda refreshing to play Mages no matter when =)

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To cap off on the days I didn't post.

Friday: School ends rather early, but it's as stressed-up as any Tuesday because of two tests in 1 and a half hour's time. Kinda sucky, and I'm sure that I'll fail the Physics one again, although not as bad as getting your body stuck in a rubbish chute trying to pick up your mobile. (Just ask this poor Aussie dude about his stinkin' escapade. =P)

Saturday: What else? Slack day. Was on KALHQ forums for like most of the time because I STILL couldn't find motivation to train my poor Knight. Then suddenly dunno why I went Neopet-ing. (Yeah, I kinda missed Kitten and her hubby, both IBD founders. I was one of their first few testers until I kinda dropped Neopeting 2 years ago. Since a few years back I'd lost all contact with them. =/)

Sunday: Got chided by mum for playing comp in the morning. I dunno why she's so apprehensive about that, but I think she should kinda change her mindset. After all, my passion is in gaming, can't help it. =/
Went for guitar class which is quite ok, except that I still can't strum well because my right hand's nails are not that long yet. Need to keep the nails for at least 2 months...

Today: Mugging Econs with Nicholas, Graeme, Ken and Daniel at the canteen during Chemistry Lecture (I don't take that multiple-formula-can-kill-people subject)

Well, kinda at a loss to say much now, but one thing to ponder:
What if the whole world is left with only one kind of food, that is, potatoes? WW3 because of potatoes? -.-"

Cheers
Pasonia

Of the foggish head and stuff

2005-04-21T15:34:00.000+08:00

Today there really isn't much to talk about since it's still not IT club meeting yet. Let's start off with what happened yesterday because I didn't post.

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As usual, I went to school with this fog on my head, and I had to drag my bowling bag all the way from the old folks home side because my mum (as usual) was in a rush to pick up Clara, her 13-year-old regular passenger.

Nothing much to talk about, except that the nags by Mr Koh (!) about the parents' survey form have finally ended. I guess I cin >> shit too much for him to take it, lol. Anyway, Dawn was threatening to tear my contact list ^^" lucky I have 2^8 more copies of them left because people didn't ask me for it anymore =P

Still no one owned up for the TYS matter so I'd decided to approach Mr Cheng for help. Sometimes you have to do this to settle a problem and it kinda sucks because you pull in someone from the outside to solve an internal matter and it's not very kind to everyone. Then again, sometimes this is inevitable.

Bowling... well, went quite well, but then towards the end of the training, the old wound from Friday's drumming blister actually cracked and started to bleed. Just great, I wonder how I'll cope with Friday's 2 1/2 hours of TRAINING O.O

Aikido... well, I nearly lost the touch, but everytime I step onto the mat I feel great, like floating in the waters of the Dead Sea. It feels quite nice.

Went back home to play a bit of High Descent (HD, found at this website -> http://www.highdescent.com ) Don't bother asking me what this is, just look at my rankings there. You'll be surprised as much as I am.

Slept at 11:11 pm with my face on the bed...

~7 hours pass~

Woke up at around 6:00am. Felt like lazing around like a little cat but was reminded of the double exp event so I went to play a while. Stupid KAL GMs putting the exp double thing at the Westerner's favoured time. STUPID.

First person I saw while coming to school is Mr Cheng, who alighted from a Comfort taxi. (Yuck, no comfort for me, to make a rather crude pun) And guessed what I did later? Well, the issue is thrashed out in class, but now it seems that EVERYONE is quite unhappy now because of some issue that is either my own fault, or someone's fault, or everyone's fault. As I had predicted.

Slept again for Maths lecture...

and for Econs lecture...

and for Physics lecture...

"I am quite dissatisfied with your lack in tutorial preparation. Better be careful ah~!" Haha, Miss Wong is getting angry already. Looks like I need to stop slacking so much, lol.

And so all ends with me furuiously typing whatever you see on top now, with Isaiah typing his blog and LSS playing A3 in 219 with his own computer.

Before I end this long-winded blog:

I WISHED I COULD JOIN THE NATIONAL SOFTWARE COMPETITION DAMMIT T_T

Cheers
Pasonia

First post to Spark it off

2005-04-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

The revamped blog is here to come again.

Yup, where's my RO parody huh? Well, it's gone slightly off-course but what the heck.

Anyway, for the rest of you out there:

Welcome to the new blog I am using now. I guarantee you'll have a hard time looking for the old ones I kept, and I don't intend to keep those in your radar because those are supposed to be away from public viewing ^^!

Anyway, to start off tonight's blog.

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Woke up in the morning without a really bad sore throat like yesterday so I was quite glad. As I had predicted correctly enough, the sore in the throat went full-gear on Sunday, which is quite ok since I usually only do two things on Sundays: Play games, or play guitar.

Anyway, this morning I was still shooting in the dark for PI ideas and I still couldn't find one. So I submerged myself in lessons (submerged so well that I dozed off for 15 minutes in Physics lecture =P)

Again Mr Kao nagged at me and LSS for keeping our bags in the lab. Honestly, I think I should rub shoulders with that F.I.R. loving technician a bit more to get him to help keep my bag whenever I needed to walk WITHOUT a heavy bag ^^ but oh well, looks like I need to find a new home for my bag because my shoulders are not so happy with the bag's load - and in any case the load is rather permanent for the time being - which is not good for bowling since I actually need them to help me in my quest for a team spot.

Choon Fu and Nicholas came after me this morning during GP for the Physics TYS. I am screwed. Someone in class has taken the book without paying and is trying to get away with it. I do hope the person admits it himself before I start coming after people one by one for the book.

Having Allan is really a good thing because now I finally have him to help me fix up the financial matters in class, and he's rather commanding in his speech, so that means the class has got good judgement somehow (but more likely he's being "sabo-ed" so he wants to assert his new-found, unexpected authority ^0^")

My PW group? Allan, Kai Dick, Bryan and Nicholas. All would be quite nice - but if only we have SOMETHING to work on at least -.-*

PE? Rather crappy today. Two NAPFA item trials and that's it. No kick. At least give me something to frustrate over (like a contact sport that everyone BUT me can play ^^+)

Before I end this illustrating-everything session, I'd like to point out something.

Didn't Mr Wee forget about our assignments? You know, the JOURNAL! LOL! Though he was the one who said he was going to check it... hurhurhur.

Ok, till next time...

Cheers,
Pasonia